A year ago, the music affected me in such a way that my stomach lurched and I felt as if I might vomit. The songs grappled with the human condition – desire, adoration, devastation, hope – sung by teens radiant with the glow of youth. Their lyrics slipped through my pores like a truth serum. I wanted to bolt. I believed I was under some curse or coming down with the flu. I drove to the bar where my husband was working. It quickly became apparent that the snake poisoning my body was jealousy. She sat at the bar, the other woman. She didn’t register the danger in my approach. She kept talking in a familiar tone, as if she was the television in the living room. I sat down across from her; taking stock of her assets. I felt that my rival was not too formidable. Before her, opened, sat a giant black notebook, the kind that allows for both sketching and text. I got out my smaller lined journal and pen and commenced writing, digging my heels into life.